Return to the dark alley.

Days seem long nights so short,
nothing remains after the day we fought,
Drained I feel physically and emotionally,
Down I walk that same dark alley,

That shot, that prick, that puff,
I feel no pain anymore within,
Shaken,afraid, scared I am,
It takes time for the truth to sink in.

The road I'd choosen with you I saw,
I laughed with you in that open car,
I feel no pain of any kind no more,
You and life have left me with a scar.

We all have our insecurities,
Maybe I took mine too far,
Miss me, hate me, remember me no more,
I am free now, high up, I soar.

Truth be told

Down I went that road again,
Sane I was a while ago,
Makes me mad to see life end,
I don't cry on the path I descend.

A drag from fire,
A drag with scent,
This journey shall never end,
Truth of life,struggle I meant.

Doors have opened to heaven,
Doors have opened to Hell,
I lie somewhere in the middle.
Truth be told I lie nowhere.

Just before the Kill

Look into the mirror a stranger stares back,
who are you really?
Something as quiet as a hiss says Kill.
Silence masks the thrill.
 Enjoy the scream, channel the pain, I am sick to my stomach.
 Love me or hate me you can't tell.
I am the dark passenger, I say what I mean,
That shot of whiskey as dirty as it was,
Blood runs down the street.
Pointed sharp silver it is,
Cuts easy and nice,
I savor the liquid I like to slice.
Walls are stained with red not mine,
The enemy stands no more,
Faith happened and took its course,
I cut the crop at source.

In you it lies

Green life, a green field, a green outlook,
I dream't to reach the horizon,
I failed I blamed luck,
Clear skies made me see, life is not eternity.
Tall pillars stood beside me,
And nothing...

I struggled, I cried, I tried with all my might,
Soon came the light shining down on me.
Face the truth, nudge the lies,
You are what you are accept it; win the fight.

Days come by not all will be yours,
Believe in you, keep a straight face,
No matter you're last end the race.
Success lies beyond the horizon no more,
Believe and failure shall be off shore. 

Soul

A lazy day I awoke to your smile,
A ray of hope that shining light,
I see you now I see life defined,
You are the one the only,
My heart and soul combined.

My last dance

A successful life,
Money in rife,
Failure is impossible,
I am fit and able.

I dance like a swan,
Competitors I warn,
Go away, I am God,
I am sure destrucion you can't afford.

One day I danced I danced real hard,
People clapped, I cried,
In pain I was I couldn't understand,
I held a smile I tried.

A learned man told me I can't dance anymore,
Life approached its full stop,
End is what I saw,
A gun and bullet I draw.

Face the crowd no more,
My talent defeated,
I opened my mind,
I opened my soul.

I see the light I see it's bright,
A child came to me and said,
I am innocent yet I died,
I failed I failed I cried.

God why this day for me,
Was I the bad man,
I itendended no pain for anyone,
I hurt no one.

You, you are the one who's hurt,
You threated others like dirt,
Glory Glory to your art,
Life would've been easier if you had a heart.

Then take me, take me with you,
Make me the way I ought to be,
What you are is what I itentend,
To be a swan you pretended.

Being is easier than to be,
Be that man you and I want to see,
Glee and pleasure come in ways,
I hand you my love and faith.

This way.. No that way

Old songs live long,
Leaves fall new grow,
Across a highway I drive,
Long patch of lawn I mow.

Deep thoughts are not deep enough,
Living isn't meaningful anymore,
It's you, it's you I sought,
For you in my life to come I ought

To do, To say, To live to die,
Anyway you look at it,
The answer is untold,
All I wait is the reason to unfold.

Failure of trust,
kill me you must,
Belief is dead,
Love I fret.

May I know the way,
Is it upwards or downwards,
Whichever it is,
A tear, a sigh, a fear.

Make me go,
Make me feel,
Show me the way,
I am alone...